Little Moments

I had promised myself I was going to catch up on editing and organizing pictures and getting things together once the holidays were over. Our laptop was broken in December and we still haven't gotten it fixed so it's put a kink in my goals but I'm going to still try. I really want to do better about writing things down as they happen so I don't forget so here are just a few recent things that the kids have been up to that I don't want to forget.

First off, everyone knows what a Daddy's girl and Papa's girl Elaina is. Living with my parents Elaina has the advantage of being spoiled by Papa and Grammy every day. Since my Dad has been on medical retirement for the last year, he has been able to spend a lot of time with her, they are like two peas in pod those two. Elaina cannot go to bed without first leaving our room, going up the stairs, running through the kitchen and down the hall to Papa and Grammy's room to say goodnight. After a few minutes, Manny and I hear the little footsteps running back down the hall, through the kitchen and down the stairs to make her grand entrance to our room so we can dote on her and welcome her back to the room, she is such a little ham. Hearing those little footsteps running around has been one of my new favorite things to hear, I LOVE it. Last Saturday Manny took Elaina upstairs to feed her breakfast and get ready for the day. As he approaches the kitchen he finds Elaina's little plate all ready for her. Papa had cooked her eggs, hash browns, toast and fixed her a cup of milk and had her breakfast ready and waiting for little sleeping beauty to awaken. It was so sweet, I wish he would have taken a picture of it ;) haha. Papa loves all his grand babies but we all know he has a soft spot for Elle and you should see how mad she gets when she has to share her Papa [or Grammy.] I love the sweet relationship they share and how cute Dad is with her. She sit in front of him and pat his cheeks and love on him, it's adorable.

January 5th I was working my shift at the hospital, I remember I was particularly missing the kids when I received a text from my mom saying, "Need a laugh? I just told Elaina how cute she was...she turns around and said 'ganks.' I had been working with her in trying to learn a few words to tell me things that she wants or needs, manners was one thing-I know she's young but having gratitude and showing it, goes a long way and it's important to me that my children know the value of showing appreciation. Instant smile as I read that. She's learning so quickly and catching on to so many things, I love it and was sorry I missed it.

Another thing we've worked on the last few months is trying to get her to start following commands and direction, which also is helpful to enforce the words I teach her and what things are. Having her hand me her cup, or a toy, or brush etc. About 3 weeks ago I started having her get me a diaper and wipes out of her drawer for me to change her, imagine my surprise and awe when she did just that. Well 2 weeks ago we had just gotten home from my sisters house and Manny and I were snuggled up on the couch. Marcus and Elaina were playing in the front room when Elaina ran up to me to give me hugs and kisses. I grabbed her in my arms, while I was hugging her, I said out loud, "Oh Lainers, you're stinky and need dry pants." I gave her a kiss and put her down and she ran off. Manny and I were telling Marcus how cool his tricks were and not 2 minutes later, here came Elaina with a diaper and her tub of baby wipes. She had ran down the stairs, into our room, opened the dresser drawer and got out a diaper and the wipes, carried them back upstairs and brought them to me and layed down to be changed. I was needless to say impressed. I still see her as this little baby/girl, I was somewhat shocked and taken back that she understood and comprehended what I was saying, had the ability to go and get the right things to correct it and that she just went and took care of it. I guess I shouldn't have been because that's who she has always been but this took it to a new level for her. How fun to witness this growth in her. I know, I'm a sappy Mom who's joys in life are but the little things but I wouldn't have it any other way.

Last one I have for now just happened yesterday. After picking Marcus up from his mom's for our Wednesday date we were driving home. I had one of my Cd's playing with favorite songs on and 'Jail House Rock' by Elvis came on. Marcus started smiling and smirking as I started singing and dancing idiotically in the car and then joined in. He says, "Jana. This is the song you use to play when we went to our apartment." Once again, I was taken back because I'm thinking, is it a coincidence that thats true?! I use to always play Elvis when him and I would drive around. We started dancing and such again and I stop to tell Marcus, "Hey bud, you wanna know a secret? With a smirk on my face I continue to tell him that Elvis was my boyfriend before I met Daddy and left it at that [Manny knows of my little crush on Elvis but come on, he's dead and ya right if he was alive...it's harmless]. Well Marcus looked puzzled and contemplative and while I took note of that I continued to sing and dance my way home-giving no thought to others around me until just now as I'm writing this...hahaha. What a sight that must have been. :) Anyway, I was singing to the next song, "Fools Rush In" when after a couple of minutes Marcus says something like 'Jana, he was your boyfriend but then you met Daddy and you married Daddy!' I told him yes, Elvis is the GREATEST singer in the history of forever and he has the greatest voice ever and dance moves to boot but he was no Daddy so that's why I chose to marry Daddy and we lived happily ever after. For some reason this satisfied him and we continued on our adventure home...I told Manny though that I sure wish I would have been able to hear the wheels turning in his head as he thought through it all esp. after watching the process. While I was having fun with him, I hope that this 'good, clean, fun' doesn't one day discredit my record for never lying to him or him not being able to trust what I say....hmf. Real quick, we went through a phase where often times Manny and I found Marcus arguing with us about simple things. For example, We say, "Marcus the sky is blue," "No, it's purple, guys listen, yadda, yadda, yadda." As a result of this we've tried telling him several times that we won't ever lie to him and he can trust what we say because we love him too much to lie and hurt him and we only want what's best for him and that not everything is an argumentative matter. Some things are just the way they are and where he is the child not the parent, that's the way it is forever and ever and even when it comes to the dreaded nap which he at times attempts to negotiate. Oh, I love that boy.

The rest of the story, I pulled a Dewey, lol.....Every Wednesday while we walk to the car he asks, "Where is Daddy?" At home, anxiously waiting for you to come home, I always respond. As we approach the car, "Where's Lainers, she's in the car!?" 'Nope, I just left work kiddo, Lainers is at home sleeping, dreaming of playing with you when you get home.' Every Wednesday, without fail when Elaina hears Marcus' voice she is immediately up and reaching for him, clapping and smiling. I should have prefaced this by saying that the girl could sleep through a tornado so the fact she hears Marcus' little voice in a whisper and immediately wakes up is quite funny. Yesterday morning I put my work shoes in the wash room and rush to the bedroom to see the meet and greet as it's one of my favorite things to watch since we brought her home from the hospital. Like I reassured Marcus she would, she heard him come home and popped up in her crib, was grinning ear to ear, reached out her little arms and put them around him and layed her head on his shoulder as he embraced her and gave her just as good of a hug. She layed their for a couple of seconds and patted his shoulder as she welcomed him home. The transferance of their message wasn't communicated through words that day but through their arms and the look in their eyes.

Being Marcus' step mom has been amazing. A lot of joy and happiness and love have emulated from that relationship and I honestly know in my heart that there isn't anything I wouldn't do for Marcus that I wouldn't do for my 'own' child. I have always loved and treated him like he was mine, that's the only way I know how to love him. The only way his and my relationship differs from Elaina's and mine is while I give him the unconditional love same as I feel I give Elaina, it isn't reciprocated back that way to me as Elaina does [that's why at times I miss the year with him that it was.] I don't have the advantage of his step dad either where I get to be a vital part in his growth and development and every day life so the lack of time at this age really plays a part in our bond too. With Elaina, that bond with her is there and it's constant unconditional hugs and kisses, little feet running to me with arms outstretched to look for comfort when needed. Experiencing that love with my child has been one of my greatest joys in life. Equal to that is the joy I see when Marcus and Elaina are together. From the day we brought her home he has had this special relationship with her and it's something I treasure. I am so grateful I get to witness it grow and flourish. No matter how many days it's been since we've seen him, when Elaina and Marcus are together, it's like they haven't missed a beat together. I hope our other children we have have a close relationship and bond with Marcus [same for his any siblings he may have from his Mom's side] but I know none of them will be as sweet as the one he has with Elaina. Since Manny and I decided to have a baby there's two aspects that I have loved being a part of with Elaina joining our family. One is receiving HER and having an instant bond and love with her and appreciating and getting to know her, loving her, watching her grow, learn, and develop, but the other fun part of it for me as a Mom and Step Mom is watching Marcus take on the role of a big brother and seeing him with her. The woman and mother in me has often felt sadness that his Mom can't witness what they share and see the little boy and big brother he is with Elaina because it's truly been one of the sweetest, most innocent, pure and precious things to watch. Knowing Marcus though, I'm sure he'll be attentive and loving towards all his siblings. But, perhaps that's one of the gifts Manny and I have been blessed with to get through the painful and difficult parts of missing so much of Marcus' life. [I should note that I include myself in that because as Manny's wife I know that Manny and I being together is right and I feel confident in the happiness and love we've created as a couple and I know that Manny is where he should be. But I also know how much he loves and misses his son when he's with his Mom, it's bitter/sweet but that's the way it is. I'm sure I don't feel it on the same level as Manny does but I feel that sorrow and hurt along with other things that come as a result of having a blended family and being the Mom in my household. So, I say that because I think perhaps it's one way God has eased that pain for two of his children in a hard situation, while it is very rewarding, having a blended family isn't for the faint of heart no matter the ages or circumstances, so I consider these little moments a gift to us.]

I do wish I had that moment on camera [again, with the photography, I know], but it was one of those moments though that you freeze and don't blink so you don't miss one second of the moment. I guess that memory is too intimate, tender, and precious to only me that it will be one I get to take it to the grave and hopefully have for eternity with me.

Hugs and kisses to my darlings. Like I tell your Popi, while it doesn't sound like near enough for the way that I feel, simply put; I love you and always will no matter what.

Our Lil' Buckaroo

I love photography. I love the idea of catching a moment in time. My Mom's house burned down when she was a kid so we don't really have a ton of pictures of her growing up or of her parents and family during that time. My Grandpa died many years before I was born and my Grandma Harris passed away when I was 6 weeks old, since I didn't get to know them this is something I would LOVE to have. This is in part why I love, LOVE photography. Not having a relationship with them, it would be awesome to have more photo's of them and their lives. I would love to have more pictures of both my parents and grandparents also during certain milestones of their lives. I remember one of my favorite things as a little girl was to look through my parents wedding album and would just be in awe at how beautiful my Mom looked, how sharp my Dad looked and how they both looked so happy. They both had stars in their eyes, you could see the love they had for each other radiating from their faces. I know as a daughter this is something I treasure so I've made it a goal/obsession to always have my camera. Sometimes, you treasure what you don't have. My family and close friends always tease me about taking so many pictures but I always tell them that ONE day, they'll thank me.

I have always loved taking pictures of our lil' buckaroo! He has always loved the camera and been so photogenic. I love that now he will think of his own poses and has developed an interest in taking pictures too. Often times we'll get our phone and camera back to find pictures of HIM on there (as well as random objects throughout the house) but it tickles me that he takes pictures of himself [those that don't know this about me, I always have my camera and am always taking pictures of events and outings. Since I got pregnant I haven't done it as much but back a few years ago it wasn't uncommon for me to flip the camera around and take pictures of myself posing for the camera so this is why I think it's great Marcus does the same.]

I put this little collage together for Marcus to give to his Mom for her birthday last year and of course had to have a copy for Manny and I. It's amazing how much this little boy has captured my heart. He is so full of life, joy, happiness, eagerness, excitement, love, courage, hope...it is truly a blessing to have him in our home and lives even for the small amount of time we have him. I love him more than he will ever understand or comprehend and am SO blessed and thankful to have him in my life. Thanks for keeping us smiling and for teaching us so much about love and life! We LOVE YOU to the moon and back kiddo!

xoxoxo

Trying to Play Catch Up...

I had these pictures taken back in September for Elaina's one year old milestone. I only got the two free sheets because while they were cute [simply because she's a doll] they weren't THAT fabulous - this is the FIRST time I haven't purchased photo's taken of Marcus or Elaina...usually I can't NOT have them cuz they are of course all adorable, so I was very proud of myself. Unfortunately she was teething VERY bad and not in the best of moods this day and wasn't a fan of the photographer. This shot she only has her little soft smile but it's sweet just the same.

With all the ones of her happy, I had to go with this one this time because this is her mad side. I figured I have a TON of snap shots of her being cute and funny and happy but this one captured the pouty cry when her hearts broken plus her mad side.

It's amazing to me how quickly things come to her. It has been one of my greatest joys to watch her grow, learn, and develop thus far. I can't imagine how I lived without my Elle for so long. To say she has taught me a lot changed my life and me is an understatement. I'm so greatful I am able to be her Mom. xoxoxo doll face. :)

Santa's Coming to Town

Manny had today off so we decided to head to the temple in the morning and then make a date with the kids. We decided to take the kids to see Santa since we knew the following week would be too busy to fit it in.

We went to South Towne Mall and first had lunch with the kids. With full tummy's and energy we set off for our adventures. While Santa was at lunch we took them on a train ride that they had buzzin' around the mall. It was a lot of fun! I got some snap shots of Manny and they kids as they boarded the train for their departure (the kids must have deleted them by accident though because they are no longer on my memory card, just the few shots Manny took while they rode around.) Marcus was SUPER excited, cute little Elaina was having just as much fun entertaining the crowd and flirting with the little boys around us. Manny said they both waved at every one as they rode around which I'm not one bit surprised! So, off they went for their ride. While they ventured off I went back to the Santa line and waited to avoid a long dreadful line, while I missed the ride, I was able to see them as they rode past the North Pole so that was fun to watch them from a distance enjoying the ride. After their journey they came to meet up with me at the North Pole. We waited another 30 minutes or so and we were through the line! Quickest Santa line ever! Not only was it fun but I was quite pleased about how well the timing of things worked out too it made it all the better.

Marcus marched up and told Santa he wanted a shot gun and transformers and decepticons. Elaina just sat on his lap wondering what was going on but did not shed a tear or freak out. :)

I love the Christmas season, it was a busy day and we had to hustle and bustle to get to our places on time and have Marcus back to his Mom's on time but it was worth it!

Play Date

Justin got to come play with Elaina and I the day before Halloween. They were a handful but a lot of fun! Day started out really sweet...when Justin first got to our house Elaina walked up to him and gave him a hug. They had a big time getting into mischief with each other and played really good all day together, so good that neither one wanted to take a nap. Finally the grumpy's forced a take two for nap time because two grumpy, teething one year olds wasn't so fun. ;) They had a big time together, here's just a few snap shots of a couple of pictures I took.

Elaina playing peek a boo with us.

Cute dangling toes....

So excited! Sure wish I knew what they were talking so passionately about [or plotting ;)].

Towards the end Justin kept putting his hand on her tray trying to get her attention. He got her attention all right. First few times she would smile and play and then she kept getting more and more upset at him and she started to take his hand off the tray and squak at him [we all know she is a little doll but the girl has attitude and lets you know how she feels.] Justin thought this was great fun so he kept doing it. This picture she has the "I mean it." look in her eyes and it makes me laugh. Here she is being serious about, 'leave me alone and my high chair alone. I'll just sit here without you touching me.' ;) Justin just kept laughing and thinking it was great fun. He's such a tease already! So fun to watch them interact with each other and their world.

Thanks for coming to play Justin! We had so much fun!

Papa's Pumpkin Carving Bash 2009

My parents have always taken great care of their garden and flower gardens. I remember several seasons of helping tend and care for the yard. Besides mowing the lawn [which the boys did] my dad pretty much did all the maintenance for his garden and the flower beds. Yard work kept him busy this last year and active and out of the house since he has had to be off work since this last February due to health issues. In the Spring he planted a bunch of pumpkins [with the grandkids in mind]. Throughout the whole season he would tell Elaina and the others the progress of the pumpkins he was growing for them. During the Summer, Marcus and Elaina loved to go out and help Papa in the yard. My Dad loved having Marcus out there to be his helper and talk with him and Marcus loved it too! Recently during fall clean up my Dad was quite tickled at Elaina as she took the apples from the bucket and threw them elsewhere helping her Papa and Daddy. That's how it was growing up in the Bogenrief household...finding a way to enjoy and have fun doing the work that had to be done.

The idea was to have a pumpkin carving night and make soups and make a night of hanging out and getting our pumpkins ready for Halloween. As luck would have it the week of Halloween half of my nieces and nephews got sick and had to miss the carving bash and the others lived too far away to come so it ended up just being Marcus, Elaina, and Justin! We missed the others but still had fun! It was fun to watch the kids interact with the pumpkins smell and guts! I've said it before and I'll say it again, but they are too funny to watch and crack me up!

Elaina's pumpkin got to be first, Papa's carved a special one just for her!

Getting interested in what's going on, asking serious questions [I just have no idea what they were.] :)

Paying close attention as Papa works on the master piece.

Elaina's finished pumpkin! She loved it. Out of the ones like this I decided to post this one because she got some of the pumpkin goo on her and I love the look on her face and close examination she gave her hand because she wasn't too sure about that part.

"Okay Mom, I'm done. Get me down."

We obviously don't let the kids help carve the pumpkins but they did get to help pick out the faces they wanted and help gut the pumpkins. Then they were the helpers in theory while Papa Dewey or Daddy did the rest. Marcus saw them getting out the knives and went to his tool chest and got out his safety goggles for Manny to wear. We thought it was hilarious and very smart of him and thoughtful to think of protecting his Popi. Manny wore his safety goggles [no lenses and all] the whole time. I LOVE these two boys! I don't know if they will ever know just how much.

Working hard. Popi's little helper.

My sad little goblin

Marcus helped me 'gut' his pumpkin! Wasn't too sure about the smells and texture of the guts but he did a really good job helping me!

The night got pretty busy after this and I didn't get a picure of all of the finished products but we had a great time. I'll have to find one of them on Halloween night to post!

Thanks Papa for such a fun night and helping the kids create their very own special Halloween Pumpkin to display! They were so proud of them.

Family Temple Day

September 26th we had a family Temple Day at the Draper temple. It was such a beautiful day and perfect weather! Here's a few snap shots from that day. :)

Not hard to tell why these two are our weaknesses eh?

Marcus is becoming more and more a minature Manny.

Such a 'Manny face.' He such a little stud all decked out!

Our little Dolly

Love those chubby cheeks!

James and Deborah, Dad, Ang, Brady, Manny, Marcus, Elaina, Jana, Mom, Rebecca, Miguel, Jazzy, and Becca.

Manny, Marcus and Becky [Manny's other Mom] :)

Me and my dolly

Walking the Walk....