Baby Steps...

Today we had the opportunity to go with Marcus to meet his preschool teacher, Ms. Hilary. He has been talking about preschool for months and is so excited! His Popi picked him up from his mom's this morning for our weekend parent time and then they started getting ready for his big day. He has been SO excited to go to Dylan's preschool! We've been trying to schedule with Uncle Dave's Barbershop for haircuts but he's a hard man to get these days so Manny took Marcus today to get their haircut so they'd look sharp for our appointment. They spent the morning together having fun "just being dudes" and then Marcus came home and spent time with Elle and I while Manny took my dad to doctors. We did baths and picked out one of his cute new Easter outfits [minus the shirt, he just wore a T-Shirt until it was a little closer to leave so he didn't get it dirty.] But, Marcus, Elle and I played Super Mario Bros Wii for a bit and just hung out and had fun. When Manny got home he showered and got ready and helped Marcus get his shirt on while I finished getting ready. I bout lost it when both my boys came in looking so sharp and handsome. Marcus came in asking, "How do we look Jana?" It took a minute to gain composure but then once I could form a word and sentence, I told Marcus how handsome he looked in his new outfit, and sandals he got for his birthday and told him that he made my heart flutter which he thought was funny. He giggled and said, "Thanks Jana" and ran and gave me big hugs and kisses!

There's nothing like that feeling in world! It's funny. I waited for 26 years to find someone to fall in love with and spend the rest of my life with, I never realized that when you become a parent, it's love at first sight. I honestly believe there's nothing or no one in this world that can prepare you for that level of joy and love. With Marcus, I don't have the mother/child bond that I do with Elaina BUT the emotions for such milestones or heartaches or joys are all the same. I keep telling myself to get a grip, that I'm only the step parent and I shouldn't be this emotional and it shouldn't be this hard to let go, but for you Mom's and and Dad's out there that have done this yourself, know that it's a hard thing to do. In my eyes, Marcus is very ready to begin this next chapter in his life...Manny, I and I'm sure his Mom however on the other hand...not so much. It's a good thing for me that we have another 5 months to wrap our heads around it and get a little more prepared for his new journey.

I was going to take a picture of him and him and Manny before we left the house because, well my name is Jana and I LOVE pictures! Don't know where the time went but before I knew it we were rushing out the door to make it on time and it's a good thing we did because it was like rush hour traffic started at 3 today, maybe everyone left early for Friday, I dunno. But I didn't have time to grab my two snapshots so here is one of him in the car, excited and ready to go.

We went to the Meyers house after wards so all the cousins could play together. Being the sentimental fool that I am, I did at least have to get one of just Marcus even though it's not at our house. He looks so grown up and is SO handsome, just like his Popi!

XOXOXO Kiddo! I love you!